"So long as we imagine it is we who have to look for God, we must often lose heart. But it is the other was about - He is looking for us." Simon Tugwell
There are times I actually beat myself up because I feel like I don't seek God enough. Perhaps I try to manage and handle things myself first. Then I don't feel like a very good Christian. However, it is God who seeks me and really all it takes from me is to say "God, here I am." There really isn't any long-drawn-out process of searching for God...He is there all the time just waiting for me to call out His name. Why do I have to make my life so hard? No matter the emotion I can eat and eat and eat looking for a salve. I then feel bloated, self-defeated, disgusted with myself...you know the list...anything but satisfied because food wasn't what I needed. If I can remember to FIRST say 'Here I am God' then maybe I can relieve myself of the physical and emotional pain of having failed again.
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