HURRAY!!!

The elections are finally over! I can honestly say I feel lighter today. But I have no good reason to feel lighter. Ben & Jerry's was giving away a free scoop of ice cream if you wore your "I Voted" sticker in there. Loaded the family into the car and we headed out. I gave my free scoop to the only one not old enough to vote. Then we went to Panera for dinner where I had the small black bean soup and 1/2 a turkey sandwich - hold the mayo. WOW! I did so good it was amazing. Then we came home and I made the mistake of turning on the television. Along with the election results I managed a cup cake, nuts, Chex mix, half a Coke, 6 peanut M&M's, AND a tiny carmel Ghirardelli's candy!!!



I would say that today I am starting over. But to me starting over sounds like I failed at something and need to start again. I haven't failed...I just slipped, stumbled and skidded a bit. Can not afford to throw my back out again. Today so far I have had my oatmeal and am planning on yogurt for lunch. The dairy product is supposed to help take off the fat and honestly I am not that hungry this morning. How could I be after all I ate last night! That dairy and fat study is kinda funny when you think about how dairy can help take off the fat - how come it hasn't helped the cow!!!



Our desires and hungers are a search for a spiritual home, or place where we know we are welcome, safe and loved. We spend our lives in pursuit of that good feeling. Last nights food feast was a sad, sadder, saddest search for safety. Our country has either been skidding out of control or at least it has been presented to us by the government and media as being out of control. Watching the election results put me on edge and I was feeling out of control. My search for safety was not satisfied with the food. Now this morning I am disappointed with my lack of self-control. Sometimes it is the very thing we are trying to improve that we can self-destruct with. When I think of self-control I first think of all the ways I am out of self-control. Subconsciously I need to think of all the things I am now doing right and all the things I can do for myself that portray me being IN self-control. Self-control - self-discipline - self-restraint - willpower - levelheadedness. If I can keep the positive forefront in my mind then I will physically DO the positive things first. I am careful at the grocery store: I check NI, carry my WW Point Counter to make sure I am not buying something that is more points than I am willing to count, anything I know for sure I can't say 'no' to but is something the others like I will buy and make them take it to their rooms. I only like my pop if it is super cold, so I keep one pop in the fridge at a time. I am parking farther and farther away from buildings and hiking inside. Sometimes I will park super far away and walk to multiple stores at a location, even walking back to the car between stores. These are some things I know I am doing right. One thing I know I can start doing is getting on my knees every morning and ask God to please guide me thru my day and help me to stay strong. I have a book that I am going to try to read FIRST every time I think I need to snack on something. My book is going in the kitchen on the counter as a first line of defense! Any other suggestions you can think of?